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long live the best friends - April 17, 2012     
a conversation - April 13, 2012     
trying to resist my programming - April 03, 2012     
thoughts on an overheard conversation - March 11, 2012     
attitudes to explicit literature - February 29, 2012     
Digital Silence - February 26, 2012     
issues - September, 2011     
Body Image - September, 2011     
those three words - August, 2011     
changes - August, 2011     
Boys - August 06, 2011     
that's the way that it goes - July 01, 2011     
Other people's business - April 26, 2011     
girl time - April 21, 2011     
I interpret the lyrics in my own way - April 07, 2011     
March - April 03, 2011     
I'm still not bitter, but... - March 03, 2011     
you and your despicable little boxes - February 24, 2011     
not my news - February 19, 2011     
Thinking aloud ahoy - January 23, 2011     
It's not me, it's you - January 08, 2011     
just not having a good day - December 25, 2010     
Generalisations bother me - November 27, 2010     
reconsider - November 27, 2010     
Tolerance should be a two-way street - November 13, 2010     
don't want no defeatist attitude here - November 06, 2010     
woman, objectified - October 28, 2010     
left feeling squashed and a little suffocated - October 18, 2010     
The clinging friend - October 17, 2010     
and the mask I had outworn - October 06, 2010     
overthinking, as always - September 12, 2010     
Everything to do with me is personal - September 10, 2010     
A burning question - September 05, 2010     
in my head; too late too turn - September 01, 2010     
stuck in the middle - August 20, 2010     
who cares? unfortunately, I do... - August 18, 2010     
mary, mary, quite contrary - August 09, 2010     
misrepresentations - July 31, 2010     
NOTHING CHANGES - July 21, 2010     
so fed-up with my own emotional fragility - July 10, 2010     
can I haz peace from own memory plz? - July 08, 2010     
jealous of people who have friends - July 05, 2010     
Just thinking - June 23, 2010     
the bad stuff - June 09, 2010     
possibly on the incoherent side - May 22, 2010     
after that argument - May 20, 2010     
diagnosis - May 15, 2010     
if there is something wrong with me - May 13, 2010     
I just have to live with it - May 04, 2010     
"I am alone and no one understands my pain" - May 01, 2010     
like a girl in a very specific song - April 24, 2010     
:-/ - April 18, 2010     
hasty poetry - April 13, 2010     
How hard is it to answer a question? - March 06, 2010     
*headdesk* - February 27, 2010     
don't ask me how I've been - February 13, 2010     
such a child - February 11, 2010     
not exactly sane - February 04, 2010     
not ready to look for what I'm looking for - December, 2009     
"a pocket full of mumbles such are promises" - December, 2009     
childish things and lonely people - December, 2009     
and I don't know where the other half has gone - December 05, 2009     
treacherous imagination - November 21, 2009     
I don't want to talk about it - November 17, 2009     
And me? I'm just FAILING - November 12, 2009     
in the terminal, she sleeps on my shoulder - October 23, 2009     
balance - October 15, 2009     
unreasonably reasonable - October 07, 2009     
And that's okay. - October 07, 2009     
dragging myself over imaginary coals - October 01, 2009     
Howling at the Moon - September 24, 2009     
your cynicism (an unsent letter) - September 23, 2009     
It is still cliched (and I'm failing to be concise) - September 22, 2009     
the de-angst-ified version - August, 2009     
sheltered - August 20, 2009     
so illogical - August 13, 2009     
a damnable exercise - August 05, 2009     
But still, I feel somewhat abandoned - July 28, 2009     
because shy people are people too - July 25, 2009     
the nicest thing said in a long time - July 17, 2009     
Here is where the road divides - July 15, 2009     
I come from a different planet to them - July 11, 2009     
The grey-coloured glasses - June 19, 2009     
this new leaf - June 17, 2009     
Paranoia & panic walk hand-in-hand together - June 06, 2009     
... and the world spins madly on? yeah, tell me about it - June 05, 2009     
sounding (very?) silly - May 21, 2009     
for clarification [edited - life is fragile] - May 11, 2009     
Now I feel bad - May 10, 2009     
woe is me - May 08, 2009     
some days are worse than others - May 06, 2009     
"I'm so alone..." - April, 2009     
10 ways to let your friends run your life - April, 2009     
Or am I just incredibly naive? - April, 2009     
Why can't you think before you speak? - April, 2009     
doesn't matter, anymore - March 27, 2009     
over-sharing - March 15, 2009     
"People! Minds, gutters, out!" - March 06, 2009     
Or lack thereof - March 02, 2009     
this is getting ridiculous - February 22, 2009     
I hate the world today - February 21, 2009     
personal censorship - February 17, 2009     
nothing has ever really changed - February 12, 2009     
men are from mars - February 08, 2009     
invisible - January, 2009     
"Ignore" - December, 2008     
so the relationship isn't protected by copyright? - December, 2008     
This is me taking sides - October, 2008     
I'm overtired but that still doesn't explain everything - October 08, 2008     
leave you standing still / in the pouring rain / forget your name - September 30, 2008     
not repeated verbatim - August 03, 2008     
asked to cut the cake - July, 2008     
the balloon analogy - July 21, 2008     
stupidity and intelligence together. welcome to being human. - July 14, 2008     
instinctive reaction - July 01, 2008     
appearances - June 04, 2008     
homesick for a forgotten era - June 01, 2008     
Don't you miss me? Don't you notice? - May 24, 2008     
isn't is supposed to go, once burnt, twice shy? - May 05, 2008     
an exercise in denial - April 19, 2008     
Does it sound as if I've given this too much thought? - April 14, 2008     
I don't like being teased. I hate it. - April, 2008     
a wish to remain silent - April, 2008     
messing with my head - March 15, 2008     
building a bridge is difficult - February 18, 2008     
- - January 25, 2008     
not such a revelation - January 24, 2008     
A blast, but a good reminder, all the same - January 22, 2008     
Thank goodness for waking up - January 19, 2008     
all of the stars have faded away - January 12, 2008     
the mask, and the mirror... - January 11, 2008     
I didn't say all the things that I wanted to say - December, 2007     
in desperate need of reassurance - December 04, 2007     
and yet I am building up the barriers even stronger - November 26, 2007     
I feel as if I am going backwards - November 23, 2007     
Looking myself in the face - November 08, 2007     
the past can stay in the past - November 06, 2007     
IRONIC. IRONIC. IRONIC. - October 26, 2007     
it has gone to my head (and replaced my sanity) - October 26, 2007     
comments regarding fiction apply to reality - October 23, 2007     
maybe not a mistake after all - October 16, 2007     
*squee* - October 07, 2007     
ooh! I'm psychic! (coincidence) - October 06, 2007     
cause to regret - September, 2007     
hard to break some habits - September, 2007     
and what am I supposed to think? - September, 2007     
I don't need to dream of this - September, 2007     
stuck - September, 2007     
how old am I supposed to be, again? - July 28, 2007     
Like a Turtle - July 07, 2007     
nothing new under the sun - June 28, 2007     
Internal Memo - June 10, 2007     
Don't ask about the other agenda - June 08, 2007     
on a road to nowhere fast - June 03, 2007     
sometimes a hug is enough - May 27, 2007     
my mind and I are not on speaking terms - May 23, 2007     
despise, despise, despise - May 20, 2007     
It's a decision not to be mainstream - May 15, 2007     
too young to know any better - May 11, 2007     
It's all very well to say "someday" but - - April 27, 2007     
they're grieving and I'm on the outside - April 23, 2007     
soul hanging out on the clothes line - April 13, 2007     
black and white, no shades of grey - April 08, 2007     
Natural's obviously out of fashion - March 21, 2007     
Hugo's House of Horrors - March 18, 2007     
Shyness - March 16, 2007     
Oh for self pity and the like! - March 14, 2007     
hysterical - February 26, 2007     
I expect... (I think I need a hug) - February 13, 2007     
the thoughts kept private - February 11, 2007     
needed: self confidence. urgent. - February 06, 2007     
dreaming comes so easily - January 28, 2007     
I'd rather be anonymous - January 26, 2007     
the shades of grey - January 15, 2007     
I'm lost in a good book - January 03, 2007     
'tis the season to feel guilty - December 24, 2006     
After Dusk - December 22, 2006     
The Deception Game - December 17, 2006     
Whatever else I may appear as - December 07, 2006     
But I really wouldn't swap... - December 05, 2006     
while the lights were red - November 21, 2006     
confused by riddles even now - November 19, 2006     
now no one talks - November 05, 2006     
sigh no more, ladies - November 04, 2006     
I look in the mirror and want to cry - October 25, 2006     
Piggy in the middle - October 14, 2006     
no tears - October 08, 2006     
In the end, what right do I have? - October 07, 2006     
Just inconsistant - October 01, 2006     
I never told anyone - September 13, 2006     
explanation for sleep deprivation - September 12, 2006     
River... wipe away my fear - September 10, 2006     
Starry-eyed - August 30, 2006     
Love life? What's that? - August 28, 2006     
Just get me out of here - August 03, 2006     
When being empathic is no help - August 02, 2006     
I'm talking with nothing to say - July 17, 2006     
Integrity - July 09, 2006     
Doesn't exist in a vacuum - July 03, 2006     
When the Tide is Out - July 02, 2006     
as it is in dreamland - July 01, 2006     
Extent of advertising - June 24, 2006     
Knowing nothing about make-up - June 16, 2006     
Too stupid for words - June 15, 2006     
Writer's block - June 08, 2006     
prerequisites - June 06, 2006     
Did not need to hear that. - June 01, 2006     
I wish I didn't get so upset - May 31, 2006     
Looking in the mirror - May 31, 2006     
What lies beneath the facade - May 30, 2006     



need (lyrics by Cindy Morgan)

paint me a window / so I can see
over the rainbow / inside of me

'cause I'm not the strongman
I am the one in need

if I were a circus / traveling around
would I be the high wire / or the one falling down?

to show you the real me / is the hardest of all
should I stay silent / or risk the fall?

'cause I'm not the strongman / I am the one
just who I am / and just who you see
a strange contradiction/ won't let me be